It seems like every post I write here starts off with "It's been a while since I've written here."
Not an apology, just an observation. We all know that the world of blogging has morphed and shifted and I know I've definitely changed along with it. It's been harder and harder to find the motivation to write with three small kids and a business to run.
But there's also this feeling of over-crowdedness. Blogs used to be a small, one person show - your neighborhood grocer so to speak, but now these giant Walmarts of the internet have popped up sucking everyones' content and making the small blogger feel EVEN MORE insignificant. Of course, there are still those small operations that do quite well, but it's not really about sticking with any one person anymore and watching a life journey unfold. It's more about trying to write something that goes viral, and if we're judging our success by how many "viral" posts we have, and with so much content being shoved down our throats 24/7, its hard to feel motivated. There always seems to be somebody saying what you want to say, only better.
The last several days have been rough on us. All our kids are sick and we've been cooped up in the house waiting it out. We're all starting to go a little crazy. I can't remember the last time I got a good night's sleep. I was up at 4am this morning giving Welina (sounds like Veh-lee-nah) a steam bath because she has croup and was coughing badly. I was hoping the steam would soothe her poor little lungs as I sat with her on the toilet and watched the first 15 minutes of Apple's keynote like the closet geek I am.
I woke up a couple hours later and immediately reached for my phone to tell Facebook in a long and drawn out post how beat up I was feeling, and how I need a break and yet I'm grateful for my kids and modern medicine and blah blah blah.
And it dawned on me.
I'm still a writer! I just write everything on Facebook - long, thought provoking posts, snarky commentary about my day and everything in between.
This was an exciting revelation. I'm still a writer.
But I do want to be a blogger. I do. It's more curated, more intentional, with less crap in between the good posts, and definitely, DEFINITELY less cat videos and political mud-slinging.
So I'm going to try something new that will maybe help me be a better blogger: Any long posts that I start writing on Facebook will be published to the blog instead. I suppose it doesn't matter where I write, as long as I write, and it's immensely comforting to know that I still have content, I still have things to say, but there's something special about looking a blog in its' entirety and being able to see your body of work.
We'll see how this goes. This could also just be my flavor of the week (or with my Facebook induced short attention span, the morning.)
Bloggers: Do you have a hard time blogging? What makes it difficult for you? What shifts have you made to try to keep it worthwhile?