Yes. This post IS what you're thinking it's about. BABY #2. No it's not what you're thinking. We're not pregnant. Ha!
But that doesn't mean I'm not thinking about it.
Back when (like it was so long ago) Keola and I were thinking about how many kids we wanted, and how we would space them, we thought we would start trying for our second when our first hit a year.
Then I actually HAD a baby, and thought to myself, "Woah. One year is waaaaay too soon. I cannot imagine doing this all over again in just ONE.SHORT.YEAR. I mean, I think I've had maybe 2 nights of completely uninterrupted sleep?Actually I think I've given up hope that I'll ever sleep a solid 8 hours ever again. Maaaaybe I'll get pregnant again in 2 years??? I knew I didn't want my kids to be too far apart, but now I know that churning out a batch of kids one after the other is MUCH more easily said than done.
But now that Nōweo just hit the 10 month mark, I'm actually starting to get the itch. I LOVE having just one baby. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT. She's amazing in EVERY.WAY.POSSIBLE. I don't want to break her heart by forcing her to share me with someone else, and it's so strange to me to think that I'll love another little person just as much as I love her. I think I'll always have a special place in my heart for Nōweo because I not only gave birth to her, but she gave birth to me as a mother. We've been through a lot together already, and she fits our family like a glove.
About a week ago, I saw this preggo girl (and this wasn't the first time I'd seen a preggo person since giving birth) but she was just starting to show (maybe about 25 weeks) and she looked so happy and glowing and beautiful and for the first time in 10 months, I actually wanted to be pregnant again.
THEN, I saw one of my girlfriends on Youtube who I met because we were both pregnant at the same time is pregnant again, and I knew it was feasible.
Then I got to meet a beautiful little 2-week old girl that a friend of mine just had. Had Nōweo really been that small and helpless?
I thought back to the thrill of feeling the baby for the first time, hearing the heartbeat, seeing the ultrasound...
I remembered my labor. How beautiful and spiritual it was, how close I felt to my husband, how much respect I gained for my body, how it was the PERFECT way to welcome Nōweo into this world. I know I can recreate that.
And even though it won't be as easy having Nōweo AND another infant (compared to just having Nōweo when she was an infant) I know that the peace of knowing that our family is that much closer to being complete will compensate for the inevitable chaos.
I'm not saying we're gonna start trying right when Nōweo hits a year. All I'm saying is that I am getting closer and closer to being physically and mentally prepared for it when I didn't think I would be.
How about you? Do you have kids? Are you thinking of having more? When did you know you were ready for your next one?