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I’m stealing a few minutes to write a quick post. It’s Monday morning and after picking up some doughnuts we headed to Keola’s workplace to eat and hop on the internet since we have yet to get ours hooked up. This is the first time I haven’t been able to piggy back on someone’s open signal. I guess people are getting smart. Someone even named their router “Get Your Own Router.” Love it.
It’s been a whirlwind few days and we feel so blessed. This first picture was taken when we first started moving stuff into our apartment (last Thursday???). This is ALL the stuff we had at my parents’ house. Yikes. I didn’t know we had so much.
Every time we move we sell everything and start over in our new place and I’m sick of have to spend days shopping every time we move. This time around we’re looking for things that will we keep forever, and I think we’ve been pretty successful so far.
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On Friday we picked up this gorgeous futon from Dragon Mama downtown. We wanted something comfy and cozy for Noweo, yet could easily be moved and stashed away during the day. She had been on a crib sized mattress up until now, and she was outgrowing it so we graduated her to a twin. I think she approves. She even slept in the bedroom all night all by herself on that thing. It’s a miracle I tell you. MIRACLE.
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We scored this cabinet from the Sally Shop downtown for $100. It definitely needs some TLC, but I love the lines and the the solid construction. It houses our super heavy TV a friend gave us, AND my giant and equally heavy laser printer. Again, another keeper.
The same friend that gave us a TV also gave us a couch with a pull out bed until we find a bed of our own. Of course it’s not the most comfortable thing (are they ever?) but it saved us a TON of money allowed us to be in our apartment and we’re grateful.
Other little things I’m happy to have again or be reunited with include:
  • my really good cutco kitchen knives. try cutting an onion with a butter knife…not fun.
  • pot holders
  • hand towels
  • my own washer/dryer
  • pots and pans
  • new pillows
  • a big closet
  • privacy
  • near complete control of the TV
Surprising things that we’re still living without include:
  • the internet
  • a rice cooker
  • a microwave
Honestly, I don’t really miss any of those things the way I thought I would. Every time we walk into Walmart or Target we ask ourselves “Should we get the rice cooker and microwave today?” And the answer is always “Nah…another day.”

good news!

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In case you missed it on Instagram, we picked up the keys to our apartment yesterday! So far this move has been mostly a one woman show (with the help of my brother this morning) as Keola’s been at work, but I’m happy with what I’ve got done so far. Most of our stuff is out of my parents’ house and I did it in one trip. I guess having a gigantic sedan is good sometimes.
Tomorrow a friend of ours is giving us a couch with a pull-out bed so we’ll have something to sleep on until we can get a real bed, and we’ll be emptying out our storage unit. I’m a little afraid because I feel like we have SO MUCH STUFF already, and I don’t want to bring anything else into the house and spoil the feeling of space. We have a lot more editing to do I think. We don’t own any furniture, so this is a great opportunity to really prioritize, decide what we want to keep and then decide how we’ll store it. You might say “Why didn’t you just do that before you moved?” But it’s hard to decide such things before you get into your new space.
I’m looking forward to the challenge of fitting 3.2 people in a one bedroom apartment.
More on the apartment itself later.

pregnancy update: 12 weeks 3 days

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The first trimester is finally coming to a close! Thank goodness because it was really dragging for me. This is my least favorite part of pregnancy because there’s so much discomfort with no reward. So far this pregnancy has been more intense.
Symptoms:
Nausea
Heartburn
Having no appetite sometimes
Being super hungry sometimes
Fatigue
Hot flashes
Extreme sensitivity to smells
Slight muscle cramping in my abdomen area. It kinda feels like round ligament pains(already!)
A teeny little baby bump that looks more like fat. Super flattering.
Things I love:
Soups/stews
Sweet/sour stuff like citrus fruits and li hing mui
Mexican and Italian food (though too much tomato based food gives me heartburn)
Comfy maxi skirts and soft knits
Things I despise:
The smell of ground beef cooking – Just can’t stand it
The smell of dirty diapers – You don’t have to be pregnant to despise that…
Brushing my teeth – makes me gag
Missing my nap  – makes me cranky
Shopping for food – it’s hard to find stuff I want to eat, and going by the meat and seafood sections make my stomach turn.
Guilty Pleasure:
Cocoa and soda crackers with butter…at night. Yup.
Looking Forward to:
Feeling the baby kick in the next few weeks. 
Looking pregnant instead of just fat.
The end of nausea in a few days (hopefully)
The return of my energy (again, hopefully)
I can wait for:
That awkward place where you’re too big for regular clothes and too small for maternity.
Not being able to sleep on my back anymore.
On my mind:
I spend a lot of time thinking about what it’s gonna be like with two kids who are at very different stages of development. I’m imagining having to be up all night with one and up all day with the other. No more napping with the baby. I’m a bit more nervous abut having two kids than I was having one kid, but like anything else it’ll be an adjustment that we will simply have to make.
I wanna know:
For those of you with multiple children, which addition proved to be the the most challenging transition? 0-1 kids? 1-2 kids? 2-3 kids? 3+?
Image credit: That gorgeous print is by kmberggren on Etsy. I just LOVE it.

it’s baby time!

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I have been ITCHING to talk about this on the blog, but I held back until our 8 week ultrasound, just to make sure. Well, everything looks good, so I feel ok about saying WE’RE HAVING A BABY!
I’m talking about Little Skittle a lot earlier than I did with Noweo. When we found out about Noweo we didn’t tell my parents until I was at 8 weeks, and we didn’t tell anyone else until about 13 weeks. I was really nervous the first time around. This time, my parents knew almost as soon as I did, and we’ve been telling friends and family slowly over the last month. I waited for the ultra sound to announce it online. I suppose things could still go wrong, and if it does, I’ll have lots of support since everybody knows now. But really, I don’t want to be worried or fearful. I just want to be at peace, and I am.
This pregnancy could not have come at a better time. I knew in my bones that we needed to have another one. Noweo’s lonely, especially after leaving her cousins on Maui. Now she’ll be a big sister and I know she’ll be fantastic.
Also exciting is the new life this pregnancy will breathe into the blog. There’s always so much to talk about what there’s a baby cookin’. Who knows? Maybe I’ll throw up some vlogs too.
Of course, this adds a whole new dimension to my word for the year, settle. We really do need to be in our own space working within established routines to make the transition of having another baby easier for Noweo. We also need to get her out of diapers and out of our bed and I’m guessing it’ll be a pretty monumental struggle. So much to do!
All in all, our little family is moving along at a pretty fast pace: new job, new apartment (soon) and new baby. You know that phrase, “When it rains it pours?” That’s us right now. Blessings are being poured on our family, and I know this could all go away in an instant, so in this moment I am just so grateful.

happy new year + one little word 2013

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Happy New Year! I hope you’re recovering well from last night’s festivities. We had a quiet night with friends and then came home to put Noweo to sleep. New Year’s is one of those holidays that has become less important to me now that I’m a parent. There’s no point in staying up if you can’t sleep in. Am I right?
I wanted my first post of the New Year to be about my one little word for 2013. I wasn’t very good at keeping track of last year’s word on the blog, but it was my first time and I can only get better. This year’s word comes after quite of bit of self-reflection, and I think it’s something I desperately need at this point in my life.
So here we go with my one little word: Settle
Not to be confused with settling for less or being ok with mediocrity. Settle meaning finding calm and peace after a tumultuous time. While it does mean not moving for a few years, it doesn’t necessarily mean that we’re settling down in Hilo and staying here forever. It has to do with recuperating and finding our stride again as an independent family unit.
It has been such a long time since I’ve felt genuinely settled, both physically and emotionally, since I’ve felt like I was in control of my life, since I’ve been able to live deliberately rather than flying off the cuff of whatever was thrown at me at any given time (or whatever grand idea I was possessed with). We’re going to be moving into our own apartment very soon (hopefully this weekend), and while being there will satisfy the physical aspect of “settle,” I also need to calm myself from within and let the dust settle from the emotional roller coaster we’ve been riding for the past 2+ years. I haven’t had enough quiet in my life to heal and process EVERYTHING.
I often feel nervous, skittish, and scared for no good reason, like our life is held together by a thin layer of honey (one big bill and it’ll all fall apart.) You could never tell from the outside, and I can’t even detect it all the time, but there’s a constant nagging in my gut that grinds questions into my head. ” Can you do this?” “Can you make ends meet?” “Can you handle Noweo by yourself?” “Should you REALLY get into business?” “How will you handle THAT?” and on and on and on. These are real feelings that need to be acknowledged and let go so I can feel settled inside.
I need to figure out what it is I really want to be doing. Once upon a time I was at the top of my class in Hawaiian language here at the university. Then we had Noweo and moved away. I’m a year and a half away from a degree in Hawaiian language IF I go to school full time. Before that I was engrossed in Anthropology and loved research. Now I enjoy graphic design because it’s something I can do from home, but I know I have SO MUCH more to learn. And then there’s mothering. The one thing I’ve wanted to do my entire life, and now here it is. Is it enough? Can we make it on one income? There are almost no single income families in Hawaii, and for good reason. Clearly, I need to settle these questions and decide what aligns most closely with my values and who I am.
I’m hoping that being in our own space and having our own routines established will help to calm my crazy brain enough to tackle these big questions and carve out some space for creativity.
I definitely see this as an extension of my birthday goals of self-care and simplicity, because what I really want is to grow into myself and to get rid of the excess.
It’s going to be an amazing year for our family, a time to reconnect, to settle into each other, to focus on each other. I can’t wait.
To read more about the “One Little Word” concept by Ali Edwards, click here.